Today is Wednesday December Sixteenth Two Thousand Oh Nine and today should be an interesting day. I am going to the Greyboy Allstars at the Paradise with some good female friends of mine. Some older, some newer but all solid chiquitas. The best thing is I don't have an angle to sleep with any of them, ok well maybe one of them but I am not counting on anything. Certainly not near term anyway.
To make matters even more intersting, word on the street is that my former best friend will be there. I say former best friend because we have not spoken since August so I am not sure what is going on with our friendship. From my point of view he is having a hard time with the fact that I am sober and doesn't know how to hang out without alcohol or drugs. He told me this last July and then after him blowing me off a couple of times I called him out on it. He didn't like it and he hasn't been on contact since. To make matters even more more more interesting, the mother of his children and a good friend of mine will be there as well. I am hoping that there isn't any confrontation that I am involved in because he needs to deal with his on shit, the mom's shit, and his kids shit before he deals with anything to do with me.
This loss of friendship has affected (or is it effected) me greatly as we have been friends for 20 years. We have stuck together thru tough times and always seemed to get along no matter what shit I pulled when I was hammered. He was one of two friends that called me out on my drinking and was in fact on his way to my house the night my pop took me to rehab. I love him like a brother and its killing me that I am not a part of his life. He told me that he feels uncomfortable drinking in front of me and since he drinks all the time then it would be difficult for us to hang out. I personally think thats bullshit, that there is something else going on that we need to face together and get thru whatever it may be. This has a/effected me to the point that I am thinking of going to Al Anon meetings about it. Now that is a fucking joke but perhaps it may work.
The thing is that I never thought that out of all of my friends that he would be the only one to have a problem with my sobriety. He took me in the first couple of nights after I was released from detox, gave me rides to meetings, and told me he believed in me. According to my friends at AA this is all very common but it doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt me on an elemental level. I thought that our friendship meant more to him that it does but perhaps I am wrong. I texted him on his birthday and didn't hear back so I am not sure of the dealio. I am going to get his address and send him a copy of the AA Big Book and a meeting list after the holidays.
The Greyboy Allstars are from California and specialize in this awesome uppity jazz and funk music. They used to tour frequently but have not been to the area for some time so I am really psyched to see them again. The rest of the drama I will try and keep out of because I don't want to deal with it tonight. If he wants to talk to me a later time and work things out, I am amendable to that. If not, I am still going to send him a Big Book.
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