PR Coffee. WA Party, & Gratitude

Today is Sunday January Twenty Fourth Two Thousand Ten. I am having a good day so far after a fairly crappy workout this morning. I don't know why but I just wasn't into it a hundred percent. I was into the weight training part of the workout but not the cardio which is weird because yesterday I was all cardio. I started doing leg presses and I felt something hinky in my right knee where I had it surgically repaired. I have been warned about leg presses and my left patellar tendon so I think I am going to talk to my trainer about it. I really dont want to go thru all that bullshit again, I mean I will if I have to but I'd rather not. Anyone in their right mind would not want to go thru that again but at least I would know what to expect this time. I certainly wouldn't want to be on painkillers for three months again. I think I am going to start with my phys therapist about my knee and then go from there, perhaps its time for a visit to Dr. Louie. He is awesome because I can call him in the morning and see him either later in the day or early the next morning. I am going to be super bummed when he retires.

Time to make some more Puerto Rican coffee that brought back last week. Its awesome because its robust and not very bitter and since I like to drink my coffee black the taste is much more noticeable to me. I like using a one or two serving french press because I like the simplicity of the operation. Just pour boiling water into the tube with two tablespoons of goodness, stir and let sit for five minnys. The give it another stir and depress the plunger thingamabob and you have a pretty damn good cuppa. I just brewed my second cup and am waiting to drink away, you just have to be careful of the grounds in the bottom. Otherwise its a fine and robust cup of zingy goodness. That Puerto Rican stuff appears to have plenty of caffeine given how fast I am typing this blog.

So I went to the anniversary celebration for my monday night AA group called Welcome All. Its a great meeting and I consider it my home group and its where I do the most service within the group and on commitments. Its where I will be receiving my one year medallion tomorrow night and its a great cross section of Cambridge. There are people in their teens to their seventies and an equal mix of xy and xx chromos as well as lots of sobriety. It also draws newcomers because its right off the square and is a large comfy room. Anyhoo, I volunteered to do the decorations and I guess they came out ok but what was a big hit were a bunch of "Welcome Home" signs. More than one person commented on them (there were three) and how thoughtful it was to hang them. I remember reading a book about Bill Wilson and when folks showed up at his house in Akron, OH they would say "Welcome Home". To be totally honest I thought it was a good idea because thats what they do when you arrive at the gate of Burning Man and aa is like a home to me. Not matter what my reasoning was at point of purchase it was a good idea and I am glad I did it. Its always nice to get a good reaction from people when you do something for them.

Gratitude is a big tenant of the aa program. I think that it is an excellent ideal and after being so selfish and taking other people for granted it is awesome to realize what life and others are doing for you. After all its the title of this blog and an important part of my life. I am grateful for my sponsor, the twelve steps, others in the program, my trainer, my family, my friends, and my serenity. I think that I am fairly serene and I've always been a pretty mellow guy. Whats important to remember is that while I may present myself as mellow on the outside I need to remember that I need to be mellow on the inside. I am very excited about the future and what it may or may not bring me. I am trying not to feel like I am playing catchup and not to rush into things. I am just where I need to be at this moment and just for the record I am going to review: I am sober. I am a non smoker. I go to the gym. I am employed. I eat a balanced diet. I speak to others about my feelings. I am comfortable in my own skin. I'd say thats pretty fucking good and I am very proud of where I am and the work that it took me to get here. I would like to date someone. I would like a better job. I would like to own a car that works. I would like to co-own a house. I would like to have children. I would like a dog. I would liek to weigh two hundred pounds. The point it I am happy where I am at this very moment but I also have goals, wants, & needs for the future.

So I have an interesting event going on this Friday. I will be going to moe. at the House Of Blues with both of the xx chromos that I am interested in. They are my friends at this point and I am not going to push anything at this point. As I have said before that I want much more than some tail and I am patient and willing to wait. They are both hot babes and I am pretty damn proud that both of them want to hang out with me. What a change from before when I didn't shower on a regular basis and couldn't care less about how I looked and probably obviously how I smelled. I make sure that before I leave the house that I look like I am going to meet someone and want to impress them. Its how I live now and how I will continue to live till the day I die. I will never let myself go the way I did previously. I am proud to be living a healthy life. Well, enough of patting myself on the head and telling myself I am a good boy because well, I am a good boy. All I know is that at least one if not both of the xx chromos will show up to hang out, perhaps even both of them. I hope they get along, this isn't any kind of competition or anything I just want to enjoy myself and I love hanging out with hot girls. Who doesn't ?