Today is Friday January Fifteenth Two Thousand Ten. Thank freaking god its Friday today because this has been a long week for me. Its like time stood still for the first four days or something. I blame it on my upcoming trip and anniversary, I guess I have too much going on in my life. Had a great meeting last nite, the thu nite meeting at the Harvard Divinity School is amazing. Small group and almost everyone gets a chance to yap if they way want. Its been rewarding to be the chairperson for all these months and I will miss the job when its time to pass it on. There is one member that totally annoys me but she is good for the program as a whole so I don't really have any right to be annoyed but I am. We needed a speaker last nite and when I asked her boyfriend to speak she told me that he couldn't because she needed to sit next to him. She seemed ok when she spoke and the focus was on her but who am I to sit in judgment ?
I think about the possibility of dating all the time because I love women and am lonely. I feel that I have a bunch to give to someone and am looking forward to finding the right person. It also scares the living fuck out of me because I don't think that I have had sex sober since ninety three. I know thats really sad and I am not worried about knowing what to do it will just be a new experience for me. Sex is important to me but its not the end all in a relationship. I have been with someone who had absolutely no idea of what she was doing but I was so hammered most of the time I didn't really either. Its going to be strange to have a grown up discussion about such things but it will also be a good thing.
I don't have much to write about today, I don't feel like rehashing any more war stories as I have done the previous days. I am in a good but weird place right now and my life is full of change. Just ordered a couple of books for my Kindle so that I have plenty of reading material for my vaca. I thik its awesome that I can dl a book in about fifteen seconds, a true marvel of technology. I can see growing old with my Kindle and I am totally in love with the technology. I don't think I have ever felt this way about something that takes batteries or needs to be plugged in. My first Macintosh or VCR maybe. Certainly my first record player, man I loved that thing. The iPod is a pretty close one too I admit and I am usually fairly resistant to technology but some of the doodads I have are simply awesome.
Not doing much work today, I don't know why but I simply am unmotivated to do anything. I have been printing PR info out and getting ready for this trip. I am not going to bring my laptop to San Juan I think that two cell phones, camera, ipod, and kindle are enough electronics for one trip. I brought a couple of books for the beach and or sailboat so I am set there. I don't have much of a plan other than to get a good sunburn, eat some good food, drink some great coffee, go to some aa meetings, and re-fucking-lax. I think I will be able to accomplish my various missions if I put my mind to it. There are a couple of forts on the island and while I personally don't give a shit about forts in general my brother is always all jazzed up about them. So I will probably visit one or the other, take some pics and then walk away.
The main thing I love about the internet is its role as a communication tool. I know thats tremendously obvious but beyond email and fb I enjoy reading about other people's lives and experiences. I was just reading some stuff on a forum about what it is like to be an escort and it is fascinating. Its an old story, a woman is paying for college and a new car but it is interesting to read about why she does what she does. Personally, I don't ever want to hire an escort as I want a woman to sleep with me on my own merits and not how much I pay her but its fun to find out what makes other people tick. It is sort of sad but she doesn't seem addicted to drugs, uses a service, and has a head on her shoulders. She has only been doing it for a month and gave alot of details on the forum to it will be interesting to see if anything happens like her getting outed by some dickhead. I just don't feel good about it but again its fascinating. Well thats it, see you Tuesday !
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