Java, Sneaker, & Other Vices

Today is Friday February Nineteenth Two Thousand Ten. I have a few things to report today so bear with me. I lost my beloved starfucks travel mug last weekend and life just has not been the same without it. My other travel mugs leak or don't keep hot bevvys hot. I went to SF's and they no longer carry my mug so I was at a loss as to what to get. Behold the internet and google. I just ordered a fancy mug because like always I have to upgrade that is supposed to have an autoseal system to prevent leakage. It better be a good mug for the twenty bucks I just spent on it. The way that I look at stupid purchases like a twenty dollar coffee mug is that I will be using this mug every day and if it makes my life easier and happier then its worth every penny. Or I just remind myself I used to spend a c-note every day on heroin. That pretty much ends that conversation with myself.

In other coffee news I also bought a travel french press for ten bucks. I was able to withstand the lure of the fancier models available and purchased one that will do what I ask of it which is to french press my puerto rican coffee so that I can drink it. I am such a fan of the stuff I will no longer travel anywhere without it and the glass french presses just don't travel all that well. This one is made of lexan and it will probably use it every day from now on. I managed to hold off on the fancy coffee grinder that I convinced myself that I just had to have because at the moment the coffee I buy is already ground and I don't mind a little sludge at the bottom of the cuppa. I am also looking into buying a vacuum container thingy that pushes all the air out so that your java is freshie. It would have been a sweet container to store pot in and I think I am going to buy one from the local peets coffee. Its always good to support the local economy whenever you can. I see at home coffee as a worthy investment. Say you drink just two cups of coffee a day and its just straight up coffee not one of the fancy schmancy ones. Thats at least five bucks a day and multiple that my three hundred fifty and you are looking at one thousand seven hundred fifty dollars a year ! Now my pr coffee is ten dollars for ten ounces which gives me about twenty five cups of coffee. Simple math will tell me thats forty cents a cup, add say fifty cents for the starfuckers instant and thats less than a buck a day for java goodness.

I also buy two pairs of sneakers. I couldn't help it and I already had them in the shopping cart so all I had to do was clicky a few times and they are on their way to my happy feet. I actually needed the running shoes and I of course had to get another pair of daily fly kicks for work. The only problem with having a couple of pairs of gold colored kicks is that you can't really wear them to work with the exception of Fridays. It doesn't matter, having a dozen pairs of sneakers makes me happy and any chemical free way that I can make myself happy is good. I think my only other vice would be reading books on my kindle and I am planning to work my way thru various series. Thats one of the best things about the kindle is that after you read the first book in a series you can then read the next one right away. Speaking of that I am going to buy myself another fifty dollar gift certificate on amazon so that I can get the next few books in the "Honor" series by WEB Griffin. Its kind of hokey WWII hero type stuff but I enjoy reading it. Be right back.

Well, I now have the next three books in the series and I can't wait to read them. The last one was a little spendy, fourteen bucks but I think its worth it. I think what you pay for shit is all relative in the person who is purchasing. Thanks Captain Obvious ! Anyway I am proud of myself in how I handled something that used to baffle me. (BB ALERT!) I sent my crush a text on Monday to say hello, something that I wasn't sure I should have done. I mean I want her to know that I want to be friends and hang out but I don't want to be tremendously obvious of that fact. There will be plenty of time in the future to do that. Anyway she didn't respond to my text and in my alcoholic mind I immediately thought about what I might have done to piss her off. Sounds crazy but it is a hundred percent true even tho I have not known her long enough to piss her off but that wasn't the point. I told myself not to worry that perhaps my phone didn't get it or something like that. I am proud that I actually listened to my own advice and I didn't worry about it. Sure I thought about it but it wasn't stressing me out. She then sent me an email yesterday apologizing for not responding to my message. This is why I like this girl so much, she really takes into consideration other people's feelings besides her own which is a refreshing change from the xx chromo I hung out with this summer. I still don't know if she likes me any more than a friend but I get the feeling that she doesn't really want to date someone right now.

I consider my attitude towards her a major improvement. Previously I would have pined away and would have been certain that I had done something and that this was a dead end. I think that a big part of the attraction of dating for me is not knowing how someone feels about you. Discovering someone's feelings for you is exciting and the hunt/chase is always fun. Would I like it if she just jumped into my arms the next time I see her? Of course I would but its ok that it doesn't happen that way. Its always good to have your A game on around people and good practice to interact with members of the opposite sex. I try to look and act my very best no matter who I am going to come in contact with. Thats a big change from when I was using, hell I wouldn't even shower if I didn't think I was going to run into someone. Its pretty damn exciting to be in the midst of such change in my life both physical and emotional. Alcoholics Anonymous has had such a positive impact on my life and is probably more responsible for my sobriety than even I realize.